I Love Gathering
Dinner with Huimin and gang was good :) Had a great catching up session. After our BBQ Steamboat dinner, all of us proceed to Suntec Mac (actually was going to East Coast but the road was jammed so ended up in Suntec instead) for a more comfy chatting session :) Talked alot of course, hope to have this kind of catching up more often. And of course pics below :P
A nice one after a number of shot
The Four of Us at Suntec
Soo Ching and me outside Mac :)
Gathering Later
Gonna meet up with Huimin, Guek Hong and Soo Ching later for a meal of BBQ Steamboat :) Was supposed to meet them up for BBQ some time during the CNY but was cancelled due to some reason which I was kind of disppointed with. Anyway back to the gathering later :) Been looking forward for today since last week? Hehehe always looking forward for gathering cos this is the time where everyone will update everyone with gossips etc :P Hope later will be a good one :)
NYP
Went back to NYP this afternoon. The feeling of familiar and comfy just came to me as darling drove along the driveway of NYP. Those memories of me studying there, friends etc just came back to me as tot all of these just happened yesterday. How I wish I am still 18 and in Poly :(
KTV
Had 5 hours of singing yesterday with Wenjing :) Super long hours, sing till both of us almost die, throat became too dry. But was kind of disappointed with the Marina KTV, altot the KTV is new branch but then the mic was abit lousy and the sound effect caused echo too :( Some pics below :)
Nice pic :)
Another one :)
After the singing, darling and me went for dinner at Dian Xiao Er (Quene was super long and the plc was packed with people even when it was a wkday at 7 pm). Wenjing didnt joined us for dinner cos she had gone to meet her friends in Suntec. Anyway, darling and me ordered too much till we almost puke hahaha but we packed the rest as we do not want to eat till we die lah :P The dish I liked best from the shop is Herbal Duck :)
The feast at Dian Xiao Er - Marina Sq :)
The Best Dish - Herbal Duck :)
KTV later!!!
Yeah, really looking forward for today cos I be having a KTV session with Wenjing!!! Heehee how I miss those session we had in Brissy sing from 8 - 2 AM wow so many hours but still so many songs never sing finish kekeke :P
2 more hours to go!!!
Meet up with Evelyn
Was feeling so tired after the cant get to slp thing for a for a few days and having to wake up early at 5 plus to send my parents to the meeting point for their Malaysia trip this morning. But then the thing to look forward to is the meet up with Evelyn later for dinner at Suntec :) Been quite a while since I last meet up with Evelyn and bf. The last is when they came over to Brissy for a visit which is so great and fun :)
We met up at almost 6 pm and had dinner at Suntec (steamboat - healthy and good). Talked lots of rubbish and ate alot too of course. But the topics we covered hahaha just like those gathering I had with Sharon and others never leave out the topic on marriage etc. I think is cos at this junction of out life is the pharse for getting marry :)
Ended the night with sending Evelyn and Terry back :) Had a great time!!
KTV
Went to KTV this afternoon with darling from 3 to 7 PM. Sing non-stop, feel so good hahaha cos only me and darling singing but of course I am the one singing most of the time lah :) Gonna meet up with Wenjing for KTV session next tue too, cant wait for the day to arrive :)
Vday
This year we had a simp0le vday celebration. A movie, exchange of present and dinner. Pics as below.
Vday'06
Insercure
I have been feeling so unsercure, not for what he did in the past, maybe abit but not all mostly is due to he never did mention or discuss anything with me on our future. And please get it into you brain that I am not clinging on what happened in the past!!!
I have already told u for a few hundreds thousands of time that it is not just the past that makes me insercure!!! I am going to 27 soon and almost 5 years in this relationship, never once he says anything which makes me feel so insercure in this relation.
Last night, we had and arguement on this, arguement was not started on this but on another topic which he should know. How I hate him on that too. Dont come and put ur trouble on me when it is not due to me that you had to do whatever thing!!!
I feel that maybe we should let things cool down first, so I suggested that maybe we should just be seprated for the 6 months that he is going back to Aust, to think things over. When he is ready to discuss on those things then tell me cos I really dont like the feeling of being insercure in a relationship. And having no comittment from him is another thing he had to think over.
Sometime I really hate him, did he think of me as his gf at all? Why he just cant discuss things with me. He can says yes he did have planning for us but he never says it out cos he is still studying and no financial at all, anythg he says now would be empty promise. Yes I do admit that anything he says now would be empty promise but at least he let me know that we do have our future together and not like now the future seem so blur! You always should have some goal ahead for you to achieve right? Tell me what you have in mind for the two of us!! If you dont have and dont discuss with me on this mean there is never a future for us in your mind!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
15th Day of CNY
Today is the 15th day of CNY, which is the last day of the CNY. Traditionly, we were suppose to have tang yuan today cos meaning tuan tuan yuan yuan for the family.
My family cos there was no one having dinner at home didnt have that of course. At the very last minute after the movie with darling, I decided since darling wanna to buy tang yuan home to surprise his mum, why not make some at my place since I got the red bean paste at my place so we ended up at my place working on the tang yuan. Within an hour the tang yuan is ready :) His mum said the tang yuan taste good :) I am happy hehehe :P
Mahjong Session
Had a great time today :)
Morning and early afternoon was spent together with my family. Love family time :)
Mid afternoon, went to Gen's house for mahjong :) Played with Sern Eng and Bf. Been a long time since we really sat down and played mahjong together for hours. We even had Yu Sheng midway thru the game. Dinner was delievery by Golden Pillow and some takeaway food from the coffeeshop at Gen's place too :) Dinner was good! Cant really remember when was the last time when all of us sat down to have dinner apart from the BBQ 2 weeks ago. Hope we will have this kind of gathering more often
Pek Chek
Was simply feeling super moody and pek chek, not sure is it the medicine that turned me into this or what. I just feel so bad mood right now. And also here I am still coughing away!
Sick Again
Was suppose to go over to Sern Eng’s place to bai nian together with Gen but due to I am sick I cant go with Gen :(
After the chalet, I just started to fall sick. First it was just sore throat, then came flu then cough too :( And suddenly this morning my voice started to give way too. Hope I could get well soon.
I want to go back Australia
Checked out of the chalet today, had lunch, sent my niece to school and nephew plus maid back to their home. But I still not feeling good about my brother and sister ok not so much on sister but mostly on my brother. I take things to heart a lot especially words said by people who are my family, relatives and close friends. It will take me a long time to get over those things. I really want to forget who I am at times, there are simply so much stress and pressure I am going thru. I feel suffocated when I back in Singapore. I always mentioned this to my bf but he just can’t understand the feeling and doubts I have. Is it because he still don’t understand me?
Family
It was suppose to be a happy day but turned out to be a bad day. Day 3 at chalet. Woke up by the children noises, a tired woman is an angry woman but this still didn’t spoilt my day till after breakfast with my sister.
Didn’t know what really my brother said to her but if she could accuse me of being selfish and wasting my parents money, I think my brother really said something bad which I am damm pissed off and angry with.
First: who is he to have the right to say those words on me when he doesn’t even know the whole story? OK, I know he is my brother but that doesn’t give him the right to anyhow says things about me when he is not clear of! When was the last time I asked my parents for money? He didn’t even know that! I am spending my own money and not my parents! I was so angry with him on this when he accuses me of wasting my parent’s money on chalet when there is no special occasion! The truth was, I am spending my own money even when I am in Australia and not my parents, I didn’t even ask them for a single cents!! I was so pissed off when my sister told me what my brother said and she herself says I am selfish due to this that I just gone mad by telling her to get the whole story clear before she open her mouth. Since I am super angry, I simply just dialed my brother number and scold him (I don’t care even when he is my brother because that doesn’t mean he could says anything without knowing what is going on!) and told him the whole thing! And TMD he still dares to just slam my phone when he was in the wrong!
Next, I called my mum because I just cant cool down even when I cried for like 30 minutes non-stop, I just hated the feeling of being misunderstood and being accuses of things which I never do, this just makes me think of the times on my cousin which I really don’t want to remember what happen at all! I simply just hope that part of memory would just be erased if possible. I know I am already going to 27 and crying doesn’t solve any problem but being able to cry out always makes me feel better. I was half crying and half scolding my brother on the phone when I called my mum. I can’t take all those nonsense anymore. I don’t say anything doesn’t mean you could make up story on me! Told my mum what’s going on and she better ask her son to get things right! And about my sister, I got nothing to says about her, I just simply ask her to think of the time when my aunties says something to my dad on her hubby which she says her hubby didn’t says at all, and why accuses him on something he didn’t do, that the feeling of me right now!
I really hate life in Singapore, I miss Australia. Although I do love and miss my parents a lot when I am there but life was just so simple there. If I got the chance I will just move my parents and me there and not coming back to this sifei place!
Chalet Day 2
2nd day at the chalet, my buddies will be coming tonight, but 2 of them will be reaching in the afternoon so that we could start the Mahjong session. Went to fetch Gen at Bishan cos since we are going back to get some stuffs and buy lunch, might as well fetch her too. Sern Eng reached the chalet at about 2 plus with her bf, yeah so we started out Mahjong session at about 3 plus, been like a year since I last played. Really enjoyed myself. Alice reached at around 6 plus when we started the fire for the BBQ. Abit disappointed cos Cindy can’t make it at the last minute as she is sick but really had a good chatting and catch up session tonight.
Darling’s friends came later, almost 8 at the night I think. Didn’t talk much with them as I was busy gossiping with my friends hahaha. But later that night, we went for KTV session together, wow this is the first time where I am with them at such a late hour. Reached back at the chalet at almost 5 am in the morning. Had an enjoyable night :) but was super tired.
Chalet Day 1
Checked into the chalet around 1 plus in the afternoon :) Happy that we were able to check in early.
Didn’t do anything much apart from lazing around in the room with my sister, her children and darling. At 5, darling and me went to collect satay. When we are back, sis, maid and the children have already started the fire and bbq which is great hehehe cos we can start BBQ the food straight away :) Parents reached at around 7 plus I think, this is really like a family gathering cos seldom have this kind of chance where the whole family is around. I am a family person so I really hope to have more of this kind of chance to get together with my family.
Friends
Seriously at this age you can really see who are those who will stay by your side being your friends forever. Sometimes, I just wonder why I have such lousy friends.
Just take an instant for example, I have this chalet from this afternoon onwards and I just invited 5 of my best friends since secondary school. The rest was sincere and fast with the answer of going but there is just this one arghhhh that I got to wait for ages and even when I wait and wait there was no reply from her when she says she will call me. So I got to call her again but I simply can’t get her at all be it sms or hp or even home, I think she just disappear into thin air. How hard can it be to just give and answer of yes, I am going or no, I can’t make it!!!
Preparing for Chalet
Was suppose to have the food for the chalet from darling’s mum in the morning but not sure what happen will only get them tonight, so hahaha darling got to help me out instead of having the maid doing the work :P
Darling came at around 8pm, got down to work straight away and lucky with 2 persons we were able to get all the things done by 9.30 pm :) feeling so good that it was just 1.5 hrs of work :)
Gathering
Today is the 4th day of the Chinese New Year :) Busy day as I got to get the stuff for the BBQ on this coming Friday and Saturday.
Darling came and fetches me at about 1.30PM, before going over to the supermarket, we went to my parents shop as my uncles were coming over. Next we proceed to the supermarket to get the stuff, didn’t get much but it actually cost us like $30 for just the sauce so plus the trip to the supermarket before New Year to get the boxes, plates etc for the BBQ we actually spent about $80 excluding the food :( My God!!!
After the supermarket, went to my sister’s place at Toa Payoh so that I could collect the voucher from her , that means I got $60 to spend on myself :) which is good cos I am broke!!!
Went home to wrap the present which I bought for Sharon (make up for the wedding cos I am in Aussie when she got married). Hope she will like the gift.
Reached Sharon’s place at around 5.30 PM, her house is spacious cos there wasn’t too much furniture around, which is enough for her and hubby. Wonder how my lovenest will be like next time (daydreaming again :P) Saw her wedding pics too, the photos were quite well taken and she look quite pretty in it :) I suppose all gers look pretty on their wedding day :) As we are going to meet Peiyuin for dinner at PS, the four of us, Sharon, yang, my darling and me leave the house at about 6 plus.
We had dinner at Manhattan Fish Market, this place is something like Fish and Co but on the cheaper side I suppose cos when the bill came it was only $90 plus for five persons. All of us had a good and interesting chatting session too :) mostly on the topic of wedding, children etc hahaha, all but me is married (wonder when is my turn).
Sharon is planning to have hers sometime next year and PY since she already got a son, she wasn’t prepare to have another one anytime soon (but I personally feel that a single child is rather lonely at times, just like me altot I got 3 elder siblings but their age gap is a big gap to me so it makes me feel as if I am a single child of a family). My ideal family would be having at least 4 children! Hehehe I love big family, cos I don’t like the quiet. I love the sound and happiness of big family. Anyway, if I carry on and on, I will have so much to says that I don’t know when to stop hahaha so I better stop here, as it is already almost 2 AM, got to sleep :)
