Flight Postpone
Postponed my flight to tomorrow, one more day to stay in Sin.
Had dinner with my family tonight, seldom have these kind of chance cos korkor hardly dinner with us. Was shopping at Giant when he called to says if wanna have dinner together. Tonight apart from my eldest bro, the rest of the family were there. Feeling happy altot it was just a dinner.
I guess family ties to me is kind of important, just love to see everyone in the family together even it is just a simple dinner.
2 days.....
2 more days to go :( Time seems to move so fast these few days.....
3 more days
3 more days to go and I be on the flight back to Brissy.
Seem to be feeling nothing when I am infront of everyone, I guess have to put a up a brave front esp infront of my family, else my parents will be worrying about me. Actual feeling is like feeling a sense of lost, no direction. Altot I be graduating this coming sem, this just add up feeling more lost cos I really dont know what are the plans for future.
Feeling so sianz, write more tomorrow.
Spend so much money :(
Bought alots of things today for the trip back to aussie.
Went to Clementi Bookstore to get the text for my uni next sem, but could only get one out of four :( Hai~~ so ex getting them in aussie but bo bian :(
Dinner
Finally transfer my money to Aust today. The rate was $1.2981 *faintz* so HIGH!!! But got no choice but to change :(
Had dinner with parents and jiejie today :) After like haha dont know how many donkey years without the children around just the four of us. Dinner was at Crystal Jade, feeling so full after that.
Donkey :)
Went to have my contact lens done finally :) Been ages since I want to get it done but just too lazy to go there kekeke.
Fetched Jon Jon, Qian Ze and Qian Qian from school today so that we could have dinner together. Jiejie meet us at United Square. Dinner was at Genki Sushi there, the food not really that good, still perfer Sushi Tei after all :)
After dinner, walked pass the game centre and decided to give the doll catcher machine a try cos I saw my fav donkey in there kekeke. Caught the donkey using $2 :) So happy :)
Another quarrel
Just wonder is he really the one for me? Keep on quarreling these days. So fed up with him also.
Valentine Day Dinner
Valentine Day, well I suppose is like a normal day. Altot went for dinner, receive present but hmm dont really feel happy.
Maybe is cos of the quarrel we had in the afternoon and also halfway thru no car but that was still ok, I just dont like what happen in the afternoon arghhhh.
Dinner was at Canivore, CHIJMES. Environment well not as romantic as I am expecting. Food not as good too, maybe I not much of a meat person.
The night ended with us taking a CAB home. Arghh if I know this will happen, shld have just take dad's car. Seriously I think, we both just not suitable to celebrate vday together. Hai~ dont think I want to celebrate next year.
Valentine Day
It is almost 2 am in the morning and here I am typing away :) Just finished talking to Melissa, trying to settle on where to go for dinner on Sunday. Heeheee anyway both of us settled it and decided on Holiday Inn. I think girls really made fast and better decision then guys. Guys are so hmmm ma fan and po ma kekekke.
Now is already valentine day. My god and I still havent get any present for Darling yet. Hmmm well might give him belated anyway cos these days go out always with him that why cant get his present. Will try to get one :)
Ok better go and sleep else I become panda *_*
What is Love?
Just came across the following while surfing the net aimlessly just now:
And finally she asked herself the question, "What is love?" For it is more than merely passion flowing, more than just emotion's gain, more than the sense of flesh on flesh. And it seemed to her as if she were asking, "What is God?" or "What is creation itself?" Yet now it seemed to her that this was the question she sought an answer to all her life.
So now, at this point in time, she queried, with all the varied experiences she'd had, what could she truly say of love? For one, it is an opening of the heart, so very hard to describe. It is compassion, yet it is self-interest too. It is giving, yet it is receiving. It is caring, yet it is letting go, saying yes and at times even saying no. It is to empathize, yet to realize another must learn to feel for themselves. It is a mother's nurturance, and a father's tenderness, yet it is also a mother's insistence and a father's authority. Yet it is even more somehow. It is order, yet it is chaos too, that then brings a new order, but then chaos will always come again, won't it?
So perhaps she could say one thing of love - that it is cyclic, like nature, or like the ocean's ebb and flow, the tides moving in and out in their own rhythm, in their own season. Love is the peace of nature and the storms of her fury, the warmth of a summer day and the coldness of the deepest, darkest winter night. Love is the flower opening out, yet the passing of its innocent beauty too. Love is life, breathing itself, creating itself, destroying itself.
Love is forever, of that she is certain. Yet can anyone forever be love? Love is commitment, yet love is also a setting free. Love is personal yet universal. Love is mind and heart and body and soul, all at once somehow, so love is also totality, is it not?
Love is thought-provoking, yet without thought. Love is having everything and knowing nothing, yet it is knowing everything and having nothing too. Love is the closeness of togetherness, and love is the solitude of isolation.
Love is inspiration, intuition, joy. Yet it is also heartbreak and loneliness and solitude. Love is the trembling excitation of newness, and the shaking of the grief of loss. Love is a slow and steady pace, yet too, it is the exuberance that makes us want to run and dance and sing. Love is ecstasy and misery, sureness and confusion. Love makes us feel as if we could do anything, yet love also makes us feel like nothing at all at times. Love is being light-headed and dizzy, yet love is feeling heavy and as if about to die. Love is the slow and steady heart, yet the flutter of its racing too. It is freedom, yet it can also be the bars of a prison found deep within, can it not?
Yes, love is all of that… Yet still there is an illusive answer on the wind that she hasn't quite caught, so she sits in stillness, and moves as she must, and waits for its arrival. For once the question is asked, sooner or later an answer forms out of the everything. And now she wonders if perhaps love is everything - all that we feel, and all that we think, and all that we sense - even all that we are. In essence, undefinable then, for love is life itself, the path of many windings, the foot upon the path, the movement and the stillness, the taking in and the letting go. Love is the illusive moment of now and the memories of yesterday and the longing for tomorrow, all at once.
But she has that uneasy feeling that always comes before the answer, so still she waits, while waiting has always been the most difficult of all for her…
Love is ageless and timeless and without dimension, yet love is here and now in this moment of forever. Love is ancient and new and ever-becoming. Love is what we always and ever and never can have, for love is dynamic. Love is the worth and the meaning and the quality of hope and hopelessness. Love is the glory of enlightenment and the darkness of unknowing.
Love is the white lotus of the seventh chakra, the brightest, deepest red of the first, and all the many, varied hues that are forever creating yet another shade of beauty in between. Love is the high note and the low, played at once in harmony, the crescendo, yet the deepest chords resounding. Love is expression, yet non-expression too - a cacophony and symphony of composition.
Love is the sleeping and the dreaming and the waking. Love is real and yet invisible, felt and yet the deepest mystery. Love is existence and its annihilation. Love is the question and the answer ever changing. Love is what we want to do and have to do and refuse to do. Love is pain and comfort too, the illness of disease and also its healing. Love is the beauty of perfection, yet the difference of disfiguration.
Love is the height and the depth and the width, yet love is immeasurable. Love is darkness, love is light. Love is emptiness and fullness, the yin and yang - forever and always distinct yet flowing within and through and with each other. Love is the yearning for life and the illusion of death. Love is continuance in time and time's obliteration. Love is its own beginning and ending and becoming.
My Thoughts After reading, well perphaps I belongs to the pessimistic side, I simply agreed to the worst side of the above stuffs. Like love is darkness, love is emptiness. Love is heartbreaking when you thought you are the most happiest girl at that moment. It brings you to so great height and then suddenly it loses it grip and there you are high up in the air falling down so fast that you cant even help youself. Basically, I just dont know why do we need to be in love at all? Love makes people suffer so much at times.
爱是个什么东西
走遍这城市 找个没你的角落 混乱的心要一点冷静
分手说不定是现在最好的解脱 该对爱喊个暂停
怎么try 心里还是搞不懂 想去爱 但又怕被爱伤害
不明白 怎么样才会满足 Don't know why 想走又离你不开
爱是个什么东西 它到底公不公平 爱有什么了不起
有没有都是可以 My my my my my my
Lai lai lai lai lai lai 希望这一切只是迷茫过度期
爱和情欲交战在心底 锁定一颗心没有想象中那么容易
安定后就不安定 怎么try 有时心会被摇动
想去爱 但是又不敢去爱 我明白 你的沉默你的痛
I know why 但不知道要怎么去改 爱是个什么东西 它是太理想主义
爱有什么了不起 我充满许多怀疑
Da da da da da da Yeah 难道我全做错
能否重新来过 爱能给我多少宽容
爱 爱 爱这东西 到底有什么了不起
La la la 我问自己 爱 爱 爱这东西 到底有什么了不起
Bye bye bye 这个游戏 爱是个什么东西 我一直问我自己
爱有什么了不起 那才是真理 有没有都活下去
爱是个什么东西 我还在问我自己 爱有什么了不起
我不能回答 我不能回答自己
First Day of Chinese New Year
Today is the first day of the Chinese New Year. Woke up at 7 plus to wait for the Lion Dance Group to arrive.
Every year, my dad will call the Lion Dance Group to my place in the early morning, this year like any other year is no different. The group arrive at about 8 am. This year there are lesser person compared to previous years, heard from dad is cos too many plcs to go that why they split into 2 groups. The Lion this year is very pretty, think it must be new kekeke.
Here are some of the pics:
Lion Dance at my plc on first day of the Chinese New Year
Another take outside my plc
Just at my door
The sleeping lion
Close view of the Lion
Last Day of Monkey Year
Today is the last day of the year of monkey :) In chinese tradition, we will be having reunion dinner on this day where the whole family will gather together to have a meal together :)
My family like any other family will be having reunion dinner too :) really happy cos hardly everyone could sit down together to have a meal these days. The dinner is great that include duck, chicken, prawn etc etc etc. So much food that there are so much leftover kekekke.
After dinner, I went to chinatown with my parents to buy things. I cant even remember when was the last time that I went to chinatown with them cos I just hate to go there too hot :P I hate hot places. Bought quite a few things home.
Darling called before 12 midnight to countdown with me :) Really sweet of him to do so as he was outside accompany his cousin to the police station to report lost of car.
Tomorrow will be a brand new year :)
Mood for Love Letters and Cakes???
Woke up early today to get ready for the making of new year cakes and love letters :)
Mummy did the mixture for both and then I made the love letters while she and maid did the cakes :) My hand was red and abit swollen due to the hotness of rolling the love letters :( Soon they become numb kekkeke. Spent almost the whole afternoon making them. Altot tired but still happy, just enjoy making them :)
After cleaning up, went to fetch Qian Ze from childcare then went to Parkway Parade to shop again kekekekee. Got myself a pair of black heels to go with my new year clothes :)
Okok so much for today, some pics of the cakes and love letters :)
The love letters and cakes that I made today :)
Closer view :)
Oranges and Mee Sua for Darling's parents
The things that I am giving to Darling's parents
Tattoo
Today went out with darling and his cousin. Accompany darling's cousin to have his tattoo done. First time saw how the tattoo was done, must be really painful cos of darling's cousin face expression. Seem to be in agony like that kekeke. Spent a few hours there before I become really tired and bored and suggest to darling that we go to the nearby parkway parade to do abit of shopping :)
Bought some facial stuff cos I could feel that my skin is sensetive to Loreal product. Face was abit of red and itchy yesterday and today so I better switch to other brand else wait the whole face swollen then jia lat. Went to Esprit to get a bottle of perfume too :) Like the smell, it's like Issay like that.
Dinner was great too, had Thai food in Sembawang shopping centre :) After that went down to J8 and me bought some nail polish too heeeheee seem to be buying quite a few things today :)
Friends
Came across this poem while surfing the net:
A friend is someone we turn towhen our spirits need a lift.
A friend is someone we treasurefor our friendship is a gift.
A friend is someone who fills our liveswith beauty, joy, and grace.
And makes the whole world we live ina better and happier place.
Well, was actually thinking after reading the poem, how many true friends do one have in life? Does friends really stay with you forever? For me I think friends are just like passing cars, they will meet you in one junction and then leave you in another junction of your life. All this is just parts and parcels of life I suppose. Not says I do not have any good friends with me, but when was the last time that we really come out and meet each other, catch up with each other? People grow up, change when they get older. Have their own stuffs and things to attend to, so it is kind of sad that when you really wanna talk to someone, you will actually relise that hmmm so hard to find one.
Threading :)
Went out with parents today. Went to Sheng Siong Supermarket with them at Tekka Mall.
Before we went to the supermarket, I went to have my face threaded kekeke meaning to pull the little facial hairs from my face using a white string. Kind of painful, maybe this is the first time I have that done that why not used to the pain yet. It was done in about 25 mins. The result heehee was good no more hairs on the face :P cost my daddy $18.
Next was supermarket, mummy bought lots of prawns and daddy bought oranges for new year as there will be lion dance on the first day of new year over at my place at around 7 plus in the morning. Every year, my daddy has the lion dance group over so got to wake up early that day. For me, kekeke some flour and suger for making egg rolls and cake on Monday. Gonna make them and pass them over to darling's parents for new year :) plus the mee sua that daddy bought for them. First time making that not sure will be nice anot, hope it be nice :)
At night after Qianqian and Xueting TKD class, we went to the flowers factory at Jln Kayu. Lots of people and lots of flowers. Took some pics too :)
Flowers!!!
Orchidsssss
Me :)
Collected my ticket
Darling had lunch over at my place, after that went to my cousin's travel agency to collect our air-ticket back to brissy. Time really flies, so fast in less than 20 days I be back to brissy.
Went to Taka after that for a walk with darling and cousin. Didnt buy anything, so sianz. Saw many branded stuffs, started my day dreaming again. How good it will be if I just got the money to buy all the branded bags I like. Just love branded bags kekkeke not that I am brand concious but just that some of the design are really nice :P
Dinner was at Park Mall, having Mogolian Buffet, nothing special, actually not very nice but spent ard $100.
Arghh bad headache!!!!
Slept at 5 am, woke up by 8 am arghhhh!!! Hate it!!! Quarrelled with BF again, I wonder will we be quarrelling everyday?
Just wanna forget everything, woke up go straight to the kitchen and cooks lunch. Feeling so hungry when I woke up.
Notebook ready!!!
Yeah!! My notebook is ready for collection!! So happy :) Gonna collect my notebook later at HP Service Centre :)
Dinner
Had dinner with Evelyn just now. 6 months never see her, her face seems to be smaller? We had la mian at Crystal Jade in Scotts. Food was okay, feeling so full after eating. We talked alot heehee maybe too long never see each other that why so much things to says.
Darling was sick today, keep on blowing his nose, used so much tissue today. Hope he feel better after a night rest.
Heehee finally bought a new bra for CNY today at Orchard kekeke cost me $90 for that so expensive but nmind I like it :) Been trying to find a nice, pretty and comfy one for weeks since I came back from Aussie but these days so hard to find one that I like till today kekekeke :)
Always feel very good about myself when I get the stuffs I want kekeke :P
Shopping
Went to do some shopping with parents this afternoon :)
Bought quite a few things for the new year :) heehee feeling so fulfilling and happy after spending and buying all the stuffs.
DIOR Handbag :)
Darling came over to my place just now to surprise me with the Pink DIOR handbag that I really love :) He bought it for my valentine day present :) Really sweet of him to do that cos that handbag cost a few hundreds dollars!!!
Another Day......
Another new day, just finished my breakfast that my dad bought for me, feeling so full now :)
Slept at 12 plus last night, darling only talked to me for like 5 mins? Just dont know why he always feel so tired and sleepy when talking to me, maybe I am a boring person, so whenever he need to talk to me on the phone, he feels tired and sleepy.
I think eversince we are back in Singapore, he is like this. Last time back in Brissy, dont need to talk to me on the phone he can keep himself awake till 3, 4 am in the morning, when I am already asleep for hours.
Arghhh damm it!!! He just called and says that he going to his cousin place to help out!!! Arghh and it is only 9 plus in the morning!!! Even when I says I want to meet him at 10.30 am, he would keep bargain with me, saying it is too early etc etc, TMD what is this!!!!!
I just dont see where is this relation going to at all. The worst is I dont even know why I should try to make this relation works!!!
