Carrot Cake
Woke up this morning to make the carrot cake that I was suppose to make like last week?? kekeke wait until today then I finally cook them :) They turned out to be quite good, nice looking and yummy. Will took some pics later then post them up in blog :)
Tiring but I Enjoyed Myself
Had a tiring day but I enjoyed myself.
Went out with darling in the afternoon, started the outing with a movie at Balestier Shaw House. The movie was ok, not too bad. Next we headed down to TAKA, I wanna to do some shopping cos I havent got my bag for new year and some others stuffs. But kekeke didnt manage to get anything at the end of the shopping trip.
There is this handbag from DIOR which I really like, in fact I love almost all the pinky stuff from DIOR, just love the design and the colour. Maybe I shall go and get them when I grad next sem and start working, but for now, it is a NO NO to all those :(
Dinner was at Marina South having BBQ Steamboat together with Darling's cousin. Really miss the BBQ Steamboat when I am in Brissy.
Back home by 9 pm, feeling so tired.
Send my Notebook for Service
Send my Compaq Notebook for service this afternoon. Not sure what gone wrong with it cos everytime when I played game or do disk cleanup halfway it will just auto shutdown. Hope it is nothing serious else it will cost me a bomb.
Went to Jurong Point to shop after that with parents and my 2 nephews :) Just love shopping these days cos in Brissy seldom have the time to go around shopping. Almost everyday stayed at home, super boring life.
Going back to Brissy soon
Just confirmed my ticket yesterday, finally settle on the date 24th Feb to go back to Brissy. Actually find it abit late but hmmm just hope to get everything done in time cos got to pack the new plc, buy all the stuffs needed and got to send the car for servicing too.
Summer in Singapore?
What a hot day!!! I think I going to melt this afternoon when I went out with parents, just like the summer in Australia!!! Even the car aircon doesnt help much *faintz* Hope tomorrow will be a cooler day.
Dad change my room curtain for me in the morning, now the room look brighter and nicer :)
From Bad to Worst
My sore throat is getting more serious. Voice getting worst too with the cough. Maybe soon flu will be catching up with me cos I am starting to feel abit of block nose. Darling surprise me by getting some pills and lozenges for me just now.
Received an e-card from darling telling me that he enjoyed doing things with me etc. At that moment, I was confused not sure what am I thinking, just dont want to think I suppose. All the relationship problems, I just hate to face them at times. All of these make all my sickness appear as they give me all the stress that I cant handle.
I hope I can give my best to try to save but somehow I wished that I could just run away, find a hole and just hid in there where nobody could find me forever.
望着墙上的钟, 忘记一段伤痛, 究竟要多久?
2 Days of Sleepless Night Already.............
Havent been able to get to sleep for like 2 days already.
Last night only fall asleep in the early morning close to 3 am. Woke up at 8 plus to find my cough and sore throat getting worst :( Feeling super bad mood too. Just dont feel like talking at all. Arghhhhhh.........
Over-sensitive?
Am I being over-sensitive? Seriously, I myself not sure. But then dont you think if you really love someone, even when you hate shopping so much, you will still be happy going shopping cos you are with the one you love?
Do you love me? Why are you letting me feel doing things together with me is a chore to you? Why am I feeling going out with my parents is better then going out with you?
Why let me feel that I shouldnt have agree to try again?
Hate Sore Throat
Just hate having sore throat :( Been having sore throat since Sat or Sun, cant remember, hope I will recover from it soon, making me feel so uncomfy.
Slept at almost 5 am this morning and woke ip at 8 plus in the morning, was really tired but just cant sleep well.
Went for my hair treatment at 11 plus, now my hair is feeling so soft :) At least something to cheer me up. After that went to Bugis, wanna get a pair of jeans but just not in the mood due to the super hot sun :( so left like 15 min later to TTSH to see darling's granny. She looked good today, so I suppose she is feeling better after the operation. Just hope everything is ok for her, then darling also wont be so worried.
Another Sleepless Night
Another sleepless night again :( It's already 12 plus am and here I am still typing away cos I cant get to sleep :(
Sick liao
Not feeling well since yesterday :( feeling so tired plus throat very dry too. Now cough abit also :(
看透
我已不是我 没有了承诺
尘埃落定的结果
再也找不到线索
牵着你的手 怎么回头
面对爱你的疑惑 怎能看的透
缘分已足够 不要爱过头
进退两难的时候 该不该就此分手
Try Again......
Had a long conversation with him just now, not sure if everything is ok, but he hope that we could try again cos afterall we are together for 3 years plus already and he doesnt want to end just like that.
I actually wanna to end the relationship cos I feel so tired about the whole thing. In fact, I am so confused that I'm not sure if I have made the right choice by giving in to try again. I dont think I will be able to treat him as good as when we first got together etc etc etc. I will try to treat him as good as possible but if this doesnt works, then I think no point going on.
呐喊
我一个人站在放眼无记的荒原
看着地的尽头 天的边缘 看不见
我一个人等待经过无限的时间
感觉所有回忆旋转围绕我身边
我还 记得当初 曾经和你 一起走到
这个地方 静静躺在 彼此身旁
看着月亮 等着太阳 我说从此
这一颗心 再不会有 别的方向 你也承诺
将我双手 紧握着不放 然而现在
你我走过 多少时间 更替轮转 同样地方
却已换上 不一样的景象
现在回当在天空的 只有我悲凉的呐喊
天晴郎 天蔚蓝
我的心 好黑暗 冷风吹在我的耳边 吹得让我不能听见
听见你说过的誓言 已经消失在这荒原
冷风吹皱一片水面 唤醒沉睡着的时间
隐约看见你的容颜 只是眼神已经改变
Alone on a Public Holiday
Public holiday to me is always spend with either my family or boyfriend, yet today I spend with neither of them. I spent it alone by myself, I just wanted to be alone for a day without anyone beside me. Give myself some quiet moments.........
犹豫不绝, 去留都折磨.
3 days.......
3 days already.......3 days not talking to him.......not sure what am I thinking, what is he thinking......
我不知道
2 days never picked up his calls already. Just dont want to talk to him at all, listening to all his rubbish. I feel that both of us should really give ourselves some time to think things over and cool each other down. I'm not sure what are my feeling now, very confused.
Went to NTU this afternoon, feel so comfy back there esp when I saw Beng Lay, so much to talk to her yet no chance. Maybe next time go over and lunch with her then got more time to talk. Just miss chatting with her.
Dinner at Sean's place tonight. This is the first time a guy cooked for me apart from my boyfriend. Quite impress with his cooking. Hardly find any of my guy friend that could cook. Didnt really eat much cos there was another friend there and plus his parents also at home, I'm too shy I think. But mainly was cos of me just dont have the mood to really enjoy the food, wasted his efforts.
虽然你还握着我的手, 但我已不在你心中.
Headache
Having this terrible headache now :( I suppose I think too much.
Didnt pick up his call from afternoon till now. dont know what to talk to him, not sure how to react etc. Just feel like keeping quiet and not talking to him at all for now. Cant get to sleep also. Feeling very tired yet I still here so awake blogging.
Tomorrow will be a long day for me. I be going back to my old workplace to visit my friends, miss them too. Didnt see some of them for quite some time esp Beng Lay. She is just like my elder sis, I can talk to her about anything and everything, miss chatting with her.
Dinner will be with Sean and RX. Meeting them up for some catching up. Hope I got the mood to really enjoy myself tomorrow with them.
傷口
皮膚上的傷口， 一個星期就會好。
心中的傷口，一輩子的時間也許都不能復原 .... 是一輩子的陰影.......口中常說著忘了..........
可惜， 心中始終說著忘不了。
這種的折磨，有誰能代替誰來承受呢？
自己的選擇，無需埋怨誰。
Sad or Angry?
I not sure I'm actually sad or angry with darling or having both feeling?
Just kind of pissed off with him arghhh!!! Why call me when he will says got to put down the phone in less then like 3 mins? This applies to me calling him too. Might as well dont call me or ask me not to call him at all. If really dont want to talk to me then dont call, it would be better in this way, at least I wont be able to know that he dont like to talk to me on the phone? Or I wont know that I am a nuisance to him right? Am I that bad that he must treat me like that? I feel so unloved like he just call me whenever he is happy etc, who am I to him?
愛情有沒有保存期限？如果有，你的期限是多久？
Cant Sleep AGAIN
Cant get to sleep once again :( My eyes were wide open by 6.30 AM this morning arghhh why cant I go back to sleep? I think there are alots of things that occupied my thoughts till I cant sleep :(
So many things to think about:
- Am I going to continue my studies after I grad in June?
- If I dont continue with my studies, what do I want to do after that?
- If I continue which course should I go for?
Arghh there are so many other questions in my mind apart from the few above, hate making choices. Why do people have to make choices and even more choices when they grow older?
Wanna find someone to talk to but just cant seem to bring myself to talk to anyone. Is it that when you grow older, your friends become more distant to you? Used to be so good friends yet now seem like normal friends? Sometimes I just feel life is so cruel, not letting any space for me to stop and think and slow down a little. Maybe this is just like a sentence that I came across in one of the Taiwan series: "The world will not stop turning and moving just for you, even if you die today, the world will still continue to turn."
I really missed those days back in Secondary School, felt so carefree altot at times felt stressed on studies but was really happy back then not like now, everything got to worry and scare that I might make the wrong choices along the way.
我不知道, 往前一步, 還能不能應付.....
No energy
Fall asleep at the early hour this morning like 7 am? Then woke up at 9 plus, what am I doing? Feeling so tired and just dont feel like doing anything.
6.30AM!!!
Aiyo it is already 6.30 AM in the morning!!! And here I am still online and blogging at this hour, still having so much energy in me. I think I will go and wake my parents up for breakfast hahaha :P
Cant Sleep
It's is 5.20 AM and I just cant get to sleep, this is just like last night :( Feeling so tired yet cant get to sleep. What is happening :(
My head is kind of giddy, must be due to not enough sleep. Just hate this feeling and keep on having the urge of going to the toliet :( ARGHHHHH!!!
I think my darling must be sleeping like a pig in lala land not like me hai~~~
So Happy :)
Feeling so happy cos I just had my hair rebond :) No more bad hair day :> heehee
This time round, I only spent 4 hours in Gin's place to have my hair done, she was using the new kind of cream that is so much better then the last few time, that what I think for my hair :) The last few times I had to spend like 6-7 hours sitting there MY GOD so long till I nearly fall asleep.
OK here's some pics on my new hair :)
My new rebonded hair :)
Another one :)
So vain hor hahaha but cant help it cos think all gers are vain :P
My bear
Last night I realise that my dad had thrown away my little bear that I bought for myself years ago while still in poly. I searched the whole room for my "WilWil" but just cant find it at all. Was sobbing over the lose of my "WilWil" so sad. I like the bear so much.
Then more worst was that at night had a quarrel with darling. Arghhhhh just hate it. Just cant understand guys!!! Ah no mood to write liao. Write more later maybe.
Bad Day
Feeling kind of sick today, my throat feel strange this morning when I woke up :( Not sure why. Hope will get better later.
I think today is really not a good day for me cos even the SINet at UQ website is giving me trouble, cant seem to be able to log in, must be the UQ ppl troubleshooting the website again.
Just made an appointment with Gin to rebond my hair on Friday. Another 5 hours sitting on the chair, a long wait but worth it cos my hair has already starting to give me trouble everyday. Cant wait to see it become straight again :)
Life back in Sin
Life back in Sin is so good compare back to Brissy. Heehee maybe parents are in Sin and most impt dont have studies and exams stress :) Just love life back here, well not really love, think is just I am so carefree here.
Everyday seem to pass by so fast. Spent most of the time going out with parents, shopping almost everyday heeheee feeling so good life these days, just shop and shop!!! But hmmm I didnt get myself anything, so sad.
Poem
Wanting so long for this moment to come-
I'm overwhelmed by your touch
You pull me close, we slowly kiss-
I've wanted this so much.
You say you were wrong; you've been so lost-
without me by your side
Apology accepted, by all my heart-
who cares about my pride?
You push the ring down my finger-
it still slides right on
Suddenly I feel alive again-
all the pain is gone.
Your eyes just seem to melt my heart-
I crave to feel you near
I shiver as your breathtaking voice-
whispers in my ear.
I've never been so happy before-
I've never been so complete
I've never known this side of you-
so caring and so sweet.
The alarm clicks on, I lay in bed-
as real as it may seem
Just another night alone-...
just another DREAM.......
Quiz
Was surfing the web just now and came upon this quiz called "Which Endless are you?" For me, it is:
Death, the second of The Endless, you are responsible for ending all lives and taking them to your realm, from which no one ever returns. You are bright, positive, happy, optimistic and enjoy everything about life, but that does not mean your silly or stupid. You can lay the smack down when you have to! Everyone loves you, and they don't know why.
QianQian First Day in School
Today is the first day of the school year. My precious little niece will be attending primary one today! WOW so fast, time really fliessssssss and she is already in primary one! I think I must really admit that I am getting older :(
Today is a busy day for me and of course my sis, parents and maid heehee. All of us getting so excited over my little niece :) Maybe a little too excited kekeke :P
We followed her school bus which she be taking everyday to her school but ended up losing the school bus halfway thru the journey, so we had to go straight to her school instead. When we reached there, so many parents around and arghhh so hot! So many little children and parents crowded the hall. Qianqian had a fierce lady teacher for her class, she look kind of fierce and hmm not friendly at all. But other then that she seem to be alright in the new school. Just hope she will get use to the new school soon :)
Spent almost the whole afternoon at her school till like her break time. Most of the children seem so hungry that they just keep on eating whatever is given to them. Must be too excited that all of them cant eat their lunch and feeling so hungry at break time.
We lefted her school at about 4 pm to go home and returning at about 6 pm to see her go to her school bus safely. Her school bus reach her house like 7.30 pm, so late! But cant help it cos she is staying in Toa Payoh while her school is at Eunos.
What a tiring day for me.
New Year Day
Today is the first day of a NEW year! 1st Jan 2005!!
Today is Darling's granny birthday, just cut the cake and now here I am using his notebook at cos my internet connection has not been release yet, hope by Monday it should be release so that I could go online.
Last night was the first time of my 25 years that I was allowed home late to celebrate New Year Eve with Darling :) We played mahjong in the afternoon, then went for dinner with friends at the kopitiam oppsite my house, 7 persons spent about $95 on the meal hmmmm abit ex right considering we are eating at kopitiam. Next we headed to KTV at Bishan CC, haha spent a bomb there $164!!! But ok one person spent about like $40 not that bad heeheee at least I am back in Singapore :)
Okok write more when I log in to blog again :)
