Dreaming World of Trina

Still doing so much for him

I am still doing so much for him when we are not together anymore. Cos I still love him so much so much that I am waiting for him to tell me he finally succeed in quiting smoking. But how long will this takes?

Bought him a card this morning and then after class went to Indooroopilly Shopping Centre to get the spray to stop his smoking craving for him. Altot I was feeling so tired, I stil asked myself to go, my eyes was half opened when I was driving and more worst is not all the drug store have this stuff. So I was like walking the whole building searching for it, spending 1.5 hrs there. Sometime I ask myself is it worth doing all these for him? Will he do the same to me? Got him a little bear with chocolates too. Tot the bear look kind of like me, waiting for someone to bring it home. Just like me waiting for him to quit and come back for me.

He let me feels that he dont care for me anymore maybe in a way this is good cos this will remind me we have broken off and that we should just treat each other as normal friends and get use to this fact.

Just like this morning, when he drove me to uni for my tutorial, the building that I was going to was my first time there, when we reached there, the building dont even have a sign that says which building is it, he just let me go down and drove away without knowing if I am in the correct building anot. Should I be sad or should I not. But anyway I was sad but I think I should just accept this truth. He no longer care for me cos I am no longer his gf. Even if I am his gf, is he still as caring as he is 1 year back? I feel things just become diff eversince we returned to Singapore for holidays.

Now that we have broke off, I cant even says anything if he really go into MIRC and get to know other girls. Will he log to IRC, seriously I dont know and will never know cos he will never tell me.

These days these stuffs just occupied the whole of my brain that I cant even have space to rest. Just feel like giving up on my studies.

posted by Tritri @ 2:18:00 PM