Dreaming World of Trina

I feel so scare

I not sure what is going on, I am so lost. I am crying and breaking down anytime of the day. Just like this morning, while driving to Sunnybank to get stuffs, I nearly broke down crying but I just speed up to like 140km/hr just to force myself to concentrate and not to cry. But just outside the resturant, I really cant take it anymore and broke down crying, even when we were eating, I just cant help it.

I feel so scare even to express myself to him. Just want to tell him how I feel and how to make me feel more secure and stuff and yet he was like more sensetive then me.

I just want things to be back to normal like last time where he can just leave his handphone anywhere without thinking of anything. Now he carry his handphone in his pocket even when he bath. What's there to be scare of if there is nothing wrong? I need him to help me build back the trust that he smash but if he keep on being like this I think there will not be any trust and will let me become more sad.

I feel so alone, so lost and so helpless. I am in a maze that I cant find the way out. I am scare real scare.

posted by Tritri @ 6:35:00 PM