Lost
I am so lost really lost, not even knowing where I am now. I cant concentrate on my studies, tutorials, assignments and case studies are piling up. I feel suffocatated.We had a final talk just now, even Maosheng talked to us this time round. But I just cant accept he smokes, he knows that real well and this makes me so sad and miserable. If it is last time, he know I am not happy he wont go and do it. This time I dont know what happen, he dont care about how I feel anymore even when he knows I am so depress etc. All he want to do it to smoke and smoke. Maosheng pull him back to the room to have a good talk with him. Afterthat Maosheng says he is willing to change etc etc, but when he himself came over to talk to me, he just let me feel he is not willing to change cos his starting sentence was "Why cant you accept I smoke" Oh mine! What he and Maosheng told me was 2 different things.
To make things worst, the girl he talked to the other night sms me tonight saying that he got a vietnam girlfriend, MY GOD, I nearly fainted but there no tears coming out anymore, I am in a stage where I am so sad till there are no tears anymore when I saw that sms, everything just came crushing down on me. What is happening to our relation?
Now I just want to find some place to hid, I am not able to face the reality anymore. All my strongness are gone. I have become so weak and no direction.
posted by Tritri @ 9:41:00 PM
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