Why I feel this way?
Sometimes, I felt left out by Kel, I do mean it. Not that I dont allow him to go out with his frens or col or whatever alone but he always gave me a feeling of not wanting to bring me at lots of time, like as if I cant be seen or I just that worst till he dont dare to bring me out to meet up with his frens. Be it cols, ns frens or long time friends, the excuse he gave would be like it's a all guys gathering, what for bring u go. It's a col farewell dinner, no reason for u to go etc etc etc. Hello, I try to bring him go to whatever gathering even when its a all girls gathering unless when really cant like the girls make it a point to says NO else I would want him to go so that he knows who and who I am mixing with. But to him he rather no bring me maybe I just too ugly to be seen together with him.Together with him for almost 6 years and I still havent meet so many of his so call good frens or buddies and there is just this group of invisible frens he has that I am super curious about yet throughout these 6 years I never got a chance to meet them at all. Sound strange but it's true! 6 years he just gave me reasons like no time, they are not free blah blah blah for 6 years *faintz* but when I'm not around his frens start to be free, calling him asking him out or chat. Even his cousin will be free to go out with him. Only when I am around they are all gone. Just like last month for a continous of few weeks, there is this fren of his that will called either on Sat or Sun to just ask him out and everytime he would just says not free so who is the one not free? Just cos I am beside he just do not want me to go! Maybe I just not good enough for him to bring me out to meet them? He just too ashame of having me as his gf.
Ya I just not good enough for him and to be seen with him. Sad but I am just feeling this way right now.
And what can be more worst than this, I am having an interview tomorrow at 8.30am and I am feel damm lousy right now due to the outbursed by him in the car just now. I am trying to get over by keeping real quiet, cooling myself down by looking out at the window but he just cant leave me alone and got to pick a damm quarrel with me. If you have noticed! I am just avoiding another quarrel with you cos I am just too tired with the whole series of quarrel every week!! Give me a break! Anyway I know you cant.
posted by Tritri @ 8:11:00 PM
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