So tired of life
Only been working for about 2 weeks and I feeling so tired already plus the neverending quarrels with Kel, how I wish I could just disappear from this planet :( And seeing friends settling down one by one, having babies craving seem to creep into me too. I yarn to have a family of my own, babies etc, it was really sad and disappointed that I cant experience the joy of all this. I am sad yeah I really am and I just hate it to tell u the truth. I envy those people who are at the process of being a new mummy, the feeling of having a little life inside them. I suppose Kel just dont understand why. You know all these inside me I just feel I going to burst soon. These days I just force myself to be occupy by all kind of things and I even sign up for gym (see below) just not to let me think of getting marry, being able to have a child of my own etc. I guess woman will just be woman, when the age of getting marry came, you just cant stop the urge and angriness of still not being able to settle down esp when you are with a guy or a man who dont grow up for almost 6 years. Sometimes, maybe he should really think why am I getting pek chek super easily esp when it comes to him buying a car. Anyway enough of all these, if I were to carry on writing on this, it would be forever. I just know I not feeling good on this getting marry and child topic, I am down, sad, disappoint etc all those words that can discribe my emptiness now. And worst I dont even know if I should marry this man, even family and friends rise this ? to me.Work is tough, stress and tired. Whenever I see the whiteboard above me, I just feel so low. The new girl who came in at the same time as me felt the same too and she felt even worst than me. It was never ez to be in a sales job if you are not a sales person, me who never belongs to this group of people, was not sure why I got accepted in the first place. For every sales job I go, I simply performed very well and thus got me in all the position I applied to. But when it came to those jobs I love, I dont why I just performed super lousy and got rejected :( Sad huh. But then I got to work for at least 3 months before I can start thinking of changing a job. Hope for the best now.
Ok I know I havent been updating much these day esp looking thru the entries, I havent even blog on my Chirstmas and NY. Oh my, I think I will just post up the pics minus the words kekeke.
Yesterday, I finally sign up for a 13 months gym membership with Fitness First to keep myself healthy and main reason to slim down :) I not sure if the price is counted as expensive but it was a freaking $1522 + $88 (admin fees) + GST (which I'm not sure of) *faintz* I am never tempted to join one but this time round my head and mind work as a whole hmm they were never ever that co-operative before apart from going overseas to study. And I really love the feel, environment, ambiance, ppl, courses etc there. I can access to all the clubs and there are more news one coming, I am looking forward for 1 Raffles (opening Feb) and AMK (opening March). I been to 2 clubs so far, both were good esp the one at 1 George St, the view was just great. The relaxing feel was hmmm good. Ok just a few pics of the pool and view first (1 George St branch), the rest will be next time cos its just takes forever to load the pics.
Isnt the views good? And I just love the pool altot I dont know how to swim but it isnt too bad to just be in the pool relaxing and looking at the view. The pool overlooking at the view of Singapore River, Esp, etc. Think will mostly go down to 1 George St branch on Sat, wkdays will be Capital Tower cos it is just a 5 mins walk from my office, Sun still deciding but if I want to go for the Tai Chi class it would be Capital Tower, that the onli place that have this. Shall see how.
Ok shall blog till here, havent been feel well since yesterday, feel giddy since yest morning hai~~ sianz.
posted by Tritri @ 8:42:00 AM
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